“This is Not Me” tells the story of gay men who have had to marry women to hide their sexual orientation in the face of societal and family pressure in Turkey. The driving character of the film, Mustafa, is Mehmet’s lover of 15 years. Mustafa describes Mehmet as a “homophobic homosexual.” During the first couple of years of their relationship Mehmet violently abused Mustafa because of guilt. In the film we see Mustafa trying to put this very passionate but equally traumatic relationship in the past. Mehmet, however, has no desire to let go of Mustafa.